Secret for Evi! Not for anyone else!!
hey evi
how are you? im posting this here becos my emailprogram is not working and i wanted u to know,that...
i dont know how to say it but i fell in love... and the guy i've fallen in love with is gay. its hurts, it really hurts. i tried to avoid falling in love while i was here but it just didnt work. he's so cute. i havent talked to anyone about it yet becos i was afraid. now it feels really good to write it down, i hope you'll understand me. It's so embarrassing. His name is Romeo and he is 55 years old, not it's not that bad, he's only 20. I met him last week when i was at my friends cos he is Amber's big brother. I haven't told Amber about my feelings becos im afraid that she'll laugh.. Please don't tell anyone...
I'm not sure, if i should tell him or not. I'm afraid of his reaction. Maybe he's only bi and i might have a chance but i don't know. And it makes me so sad that i have to go back to Germany so i can't be with him.I think I'm going to tell him how i feel. It doesn't matter if he says "No" becos I'm going home anyway. I'd be tempted to stay in Australia if he said "Yes"... I'm seriously thinking about getting a sex change if that's the only way he'll love me.
Please don't tell anyone. I couldn't stand the embarrassment.
Lots of love, Niki
Hey other people,
i thought you'd read this although you were not supposed to. This shows me how much you appreciate my privacy. Thanks a lot. Now I know who my real friends are.
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I had the best time! Thanks guys!
